What is it like to feel happy? To feel so calm that nothing matters at all? To feel the world is moving so fast that I'm gonna be 20 in a few days, well technically. I'm not confused about what I want, I'm not tired of living this way, I'm just grateful that I've been raised by my mom. And because of her I started to realize a few things.
I am sorry if I hurt anybody, I am sorry if I give you guys hope, I am sorry if I changed, I am sorry if I am being me and you guys don't feel like liking me or whatever. But I am me, and this is who I want to be. Thank God, I have such good friends. Nisa Mimi Liyana Azie Phimb Toncet and especially Dayana. I know that we're not that close but she knows me since high school, she sees the inner me. She is such a good friend I must say. Thank you Allah for such great life. Eyes closed, heart beats I can feel the love. I am sorry for being so egoist, so complicated sometimes. But I want what best for me. I am not choosy, but maybe I'm too scared of having relationship. Feeling the pain over and over again, it's like being stabbed over and over again and I am not strong enough to stop it, I can just cry, cry all day. So weak of me back then, I've been a slave for love since. Love is for someone that are ready to commit, ready to take care of each other, love is such a powerful thing that can change your life, but it is also can ruin you.
Why rush? Why be a slave? Why not we choose a different path of love? Why not we take a step at a time? I'm a girl, I'm weak, I'm fragile, I cry a lot. But I need to stay strong but I can't do it alone.
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