okay lets begin ouh and for this post i'll type in bahasa melayu ececey haha. tak bukan apa. its just kalau kita macam keep on writing in english, or practicing to speak in english, automatically it'll improve our english okay. but its not like i've got an A for my english kan haha neither bahasa melayu okay, i just not that good ni subject teras okay duh whatever.
haiiiii :). sebelum ni kita macam selalu berangan nak ada boyfriend yang handsome, yang baik, comel, putih, gebu, pandai, matang haha macam-macam lah. masa kecil-kecil dulu siap nak ada boyfriend anak raja lagi tuh fuuuhhhh tingginya angan-angan kan. haha. lain lah kita ni hotstuff kan nak berangan benda macam tu hihi. hai kita berumur 18 tahun yes yes lapan-belas kay and macam cool gila bila umur 18 ni haha padahal takde apa-apa perubahan pun. and dah 18 tahun kita hidup di atas bumi Maha Pencipta yang terhebat sekali tiada tandigannya lah kan kita ada 3 boyfriend je. tige je tauuu tak banyak pun. tak handsome pun tige-tige tuh haha bughuk je ghupenye haha/ and for the 3 boyfriend tuh, semuanya berhuruf A seriously lah.
pengalaman untuk kenal lelaki ni takde lah macam banyak mana pun, serious, kita ni mana lah nak bersosial yang melampau yang bergaul dengan setiap lapisan masyarakat ni nak kutik semua pengalaman kalau boleh, so pengalaman kita pasal lelaki is soo not banyak okay. so everything kita macam bendui sikit hahaha. is it a right word to describe? duhh. whatever they do i just like haaa okay haa okay. senang sangat cair after kena pujuk. for me sorry is cukup sangat dah. watefak kan? even mamat tuh duakan aku, aku still macam i tak kisah, mamat tuh ada gambar perempuan lain which is not only one but like 60 kan? gambar macam showing their upper bodyyyy and all. stupid me. I AM INCREDIBLY STUPID FOR BEHAVING LIKE THAT, IT SOOO DOESNT SOUNDED LIKE ME. STUPID ME. and they just leave without any regrets.
maybe it is just no the time yet kan? after experiencing all this, kita macam dah realise that benda macam ni just tinggalkan a bad memory that couldnt be erase by any branded rubber. however, it matures me. it leads me to a door which written self-confidence. after all this, my self-esteem have risen drastically. it completely changes my way of view, my feelings and especially my self confidence. but the childish in me will never fade away hahaha. grr. i am soo najwa lah kan. okay back to the point, after macam realise i am being stupid for loving a guy like that, i've stopped. i dont have any feelings to involve in a relationship that the percent of having the same relationship is soo high i wont involve in it again ever ever again. so now, i am going to be single as long as i can eventhough there's someone in my heart now eceh haha. takde lah. maybe he is the one, maybe he is not? who knows kan :D. yet dia pun macam tak tau je aku macam suka dia kan. its complicated with him yet so simple with him? ♥ byeeeeee assalamualaikum
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