it's been a while now..

hello world hello bloggers hello friends, ouh almost forgotten hello readers. hmm. its been a while since my previous post right? berjuta hari dah terasa lamanya. haha padahal baru dalam five to six months, i guess. i really miss all the post all the quiz kan. its bugging me since from the start. the main topic is still the same. its
okay, 09062010. its a date that i'll never forget, the date that will always grow in my mind. remember the post 26042009? it is the starting point? alahai semua permulaan mesti ada pengakhiran kan? and there it is. itu lah akhirnya. byee like a dream come true. its hard for me to forget. haha dont be such a sarcastic. hey its true lah. when you experience it urself, you'll know. alah i know lah itu cinta monyet je, tapi its still perasaan kan? maybe perangai saya terlampau merimaskan kot? hah. saya entah menyesal lah dengan what had happened. tapi nak buat macam mana the decision have been made. dari dia pulak tuh. yessss. dulu memang macam budak budak semua. menangis bagai nak rak. ego jatuh. murah sangat ego tuh. murah sangat air mata. lamalama aku pun rimas if dapat awek macam ni kan? haha. act girls are more complicated than guys. guys semua relax je. unlike girls. sikitsikit ugut nak mati bunuh diri kan? *bukan korang k ada lah sekelompok tuh. buat actually kita kena act relax je. just be calm. apa apa pun bincang dulu lah, tanya selidik jangan terus, "u jangan, i mintak break nanti", or "u pergi lah carik girlfriend lain", or "u pergi jugak i off phone sampai bilabila". haha kau cakap sikit dengan aku ada beran ke kau nak off sampai bila bila? serius macam budak budak wey, act like an adult boleh. aku cakap orang aku pun sama! haha. stupido. so now i am still holding the words that came out from ur mouth. since the 09062010 day until now. i cant blame u for everything. its certainly not ur fault at all. but i really crushes my heart when u see-ing someone else and yet still hiding from me? are you treating me like i am a seven year old baby girl? IF YOU ARE, i am a seventeen year old girl. i wont bite. just give me a text message saying i tak nak u dah. senang kan? it's pretty hard when it comes to this. loving someone that doesnt love you back. but i'm trying to be cool, more cooler than a quiet river.